Sierra's View: May 2013

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Friday, May 31, 2013

Amen!

I needed this tonight.
You know those days when you just feel like crap physically? Like you weigh 900 pounds and just want to slice off that fat ASAP. That was me today. And yesterday. And this whole month, basically. Maybe it's because summer is here and I am showing a little more skin (oh no!) and I'm getting married in less than 2 months and I realize that I do not have my 17 year old body anymore. Gym time is my friend right now. And we need to become BEST FRIENDS if you know what I mean.
Anyway, amidst this awful abyss of negative self talk and pity physical parties (okay like 10 points for alliteration on that sentence! Can I get a holla?) ...this video was very much needed.




Ya know?
Amen, Julia Roberts! A-FREAKING-MEN.

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Saying Goodbye to My Babies.


Never mind the fact that my "babies" are feisty 10 year olds. And even though they thought they were 16, they were still so innocent and I loved them like they were my own.
Creeped out yet?
I am talking about my very first students. I know that teachers get attached to their students, and I'm sure I will next year, and the year after that, and five years from now. But there is nothing quite like your very first class as a teacher. I made a relationship with each one of these kids and am forever affected (yes, both positively and negatively!) by their particular personalities, strength, and little spirits. I am two days into summer and I already miss them like crazy. Yes, there were numerous moments where I wanted to personally strangle some of them (is that politically correct? Can I say that?), but I saw each of them grow intellectually, emotionally, and physically from the beginning of the year to the end. 
I watched students who could not stand each other at the beginning of the year, begin to become close friends. I saw teamwork being portrayed on many occasions--them helping each other without me even asking. I saw them become so close, like a family, that it made me proud to say I was their teacher. I laughed my head off as they constantly joked with me about everything. I saw some students who could barely do their times tables, be able to do long division on their own. 
It's a funny thing about being a teacher. I have been waiting for summer break since, well, uh, January to be honest, but now that it is here I notice that my "purpose" has diminished and I sort of don't know what to do with my time. I have spent so many hours in my classroom, planning, prepping, thinking about those students that now summer has arrived, I feel like a little part of me is gone. As cheesy as it sounds, those students were not only my job, but a big part of my life. I don't feel like I am doing anything (and believe me, wedding planning is not boring!). This morning I slept in til 9 (and yes that is early for me. Never mind the fact that I am getting married in 2 months and I can still sleep in til noon most days if you let me). 
I love my job. Even though it has caused me to gain weight (people don't understand that sugar and caffeine is the only thing that gets teachers through the day!) and caused a lot of stress, like most things, anything worth doing in this life is difficult.
 The most difficult part of the year for me was when I said goodbye to my students last week. This was my Facebook status the other day:

"Bawled like a baby as I said goodbye to my students today. Was truly not expecting it to be as difficult as it was--they were my little family! I was particular moved when a little boy whom I have struggled with immensely came running up to me after everyone left, right into my arms, and said, "Miss Ainge, you are my hero. I'm gonna miss you." I can't explain to you the exponential amount of emotion I felt when I heard those words come from a 10 year old boy. Teachers really do change lives! I have the best job in the world. So grateful for the opportunity to teach my feisty, hilarious, intelligent students this year. Can't wait for the next amazing, exciting adventures happening in the next few months! Wedding planning, here I come!"

I don't really know any other way to put it. When that student who I have struggled with immensely came back to me and wouldn't let go as he hugged me, I lost it. I completely lost it. It made me realize that I did help him. Through all those difficult times, I was changing his life. And little did he know, he was changing mine as well. I truly wasn't expecting for it to be so hard to say goodbye. I think it would be easier if I knew that I was going to be at that same school the following year, but because I am moving schools, the goodbye's were a little more permanent, if you will. 
Summer is a bittersweet time for me. I am grateful for the time that I have to get some time to rejuvenate, plan, etc. But I do miss teaching and my students. I do. 
I am grateful for the memories that were formed.
I am grateful for the difficult ones, who taught me patience and understanding.
I am grateful that through those "difficult" ones,  I realized that everyone has a reason for acting why they do. 
I am grateful for the ability to connect with younger people. They teach me so much about life.
I am grateful for learning the purpose of organization: not only in a classroom but in life in general. 
I am grateful for the knowledge that I have formed: about basic subjects in school, the inner workings of children, and the importance of communication. 


via instagram


Here's to a great summer!!!!

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

LINK UP Bachelorette Thoughts: Desiree's Season {Episode 1: Season Premiere}


Well friends, the Bachelorette is back!! Is it pathetic how excited I am for this? Yes, yes it is. I know. But I am thrilled to have Desiree be the new Bachelorette. She’s cute. Fun. Ya know, the works. The only requirements for being bachelorette after all are: 1. Being pretty 2. Being nice and 3. Hot body. So she fits.
No, but seriously, I really like Des.

And is it also pathetic that my girlfriends and I have made a bracket? Yes, yes it is. But, it’s fine, cause I’m gonna win. We are competitive over here, people. f you want to join this bracket, let me know. I can send you it J

Since the Bachelorette is up and running, I have to document all my thoughts and jokes. I can’t help but laugh at this show. Yes, I make fun of it, but I also love it. Like, a lot. And I want you Bachelor/Bachelorette lovers to join the party!
Here’s the game plan:

I have decided to make this a button only link up party!
 I know so many people watch this show (I know you do!)
 So let's all get in on the drama, eh?
Here are the rules: 

1. Follow Oh, Just Living the Dream. 
2. Put the Bachelorette button somewhere in your post and link it back to mine! Easy enough, eh?
3. Leave a comment telling me that you linked up!!!! 

HERE'S TO SOME JUICY DRAMA POSTS.









 Well, here are my unedited, first thoughts on some of the me. I am very disappointed in the choice of men that are on this season. I don't feel connected to any of them right now. And apparently Des likes really muscular, beefy men since ALL OF THEM ARE THAT WAY: 

Drew
He's pretty. But like, too pretty. His story seems too good to be true. Alcholic father, etc. etc. We get it. You're hot. You've had a hard life. Got it. You're still hot. He's a sweetie though.

Brooks
He looks like Shaggy off of Scooby Doo.
I don't love him, but I like him right now. I'm pretty sure he goes far too. 

Brad
He's boring. But seems nice. And he is the best looking, in my opinion. I feel like he is super under rated in his looks. 

Bryden
Needs braces. and a new haircut. Dumb and dumber again? IS IT LLOYD?! Seems like a nice enough guy. 

Will
Black guy won't win but I like him!!! Mr. Enthusiastic! He won't win, but I kinda like him.

Zak W.
Without a C, so he's definitely an individual, ya know? Unlike Bryden, he has great teeth. He's a wilderness guy, I guess. And no shirt? Seriously. How much of a tool would you like to be right now?

Robert
Whoa. Is he 12? And hello, Eyebrows. How are you? He's alike a cute nerd. Super chill, fun,. I don't know. I kinda like him.

Mike
Dental Student who likes like a rapist. And yes, he would be hotter if he had a British accent. He is correct.

Brian
Boringggggggg.

Brandon
Adrenaline junkie. He's a wakeboarder. That's cool. Except he seems way too cool. Too cool, bro. For anything. Blah. But I like him!!!

Dan
Underbite, Dan. I like him! Beverage Sales Director.

Ben 
WITH THE KID. OH MY HEART.
I like him, but he almost seems a little too good to be true. 

Right now, here are my top 4:
Ben
Drew
Brandon
Brooks 

I have others thoughts but I just got back from Bikram yoga and I'm in a state of euphoria. More on that later. I love it!!!!

Saturday, May 25, 2013

School's Out for Summer!

I have a lot of thoughts on the school year ending.
Yes, more than just the fact that I bawled like a baby as I said goodbye to my students.
It was much more difficult than I expected.
My college education was great, but they definitely did not prepare me to say goodbye to me first class--I was an emotional basket case. What's new. 
But, for now, I am going to leave you with a hilarious video that my faculty created to show the students on the last day of school. The kids absolutely loved it.
Who says teachers are old and boring?!
Enjoy!!
10 points if you can spot me too...

click 
HERE
to see the video



Monday, May 6, 2013

Even Though It Is Cloudy Outside...

....I am still anxious for warm sunshine and the beautiful springtime weather!

I took these pictures at Balboa Park in San Diego when I was on Spring Break. 
Hoping spring weather will come back around and stay ♥








How can you not love flowers?

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Sahn-Dee-aw-Go.

Sound it out. 
You can do it.
A month ago. YES, A MONTH AGO. I KNOW. Don't judge me. Have you picked up that my life is hectic yet? 

For Spring Break in April, I dragged (okay, he willingly wanted to go) Tanner to go see my sister and her new baby in San Diego. It was such a fun trip. I didn't think about teaching or jobs or anything-- I just spent time with my two nephews, Lincoln and Dane, my favorite doggy, Baxter, one of my favorite three sisters (see what I did there?) and my hot fiancĂ©. We spent time at Balboa Park, the San Diego Zoo, Carlsbad beach, Seaport Village, and a lot of time on my sister's beautiful deck outside in the sun. And hey, good news people, he saw me with my family and didn't run! It's a miracle! It was our first road trip as a couple and I loved every second of it. Well, okay, not every second. But you get the idea.

Now, if it could not be October weather outside today...that'd be great. Summer's almost here, summer's almost here, summer's almost here. We can do it, people! 4th quarter!



























Sigh.
Love that place. 

He Put a Ring On It.

Yes, I have had multiple people asking me about this story for a week and a half now. 
And yes, I am just now getting around to this post. 
I have been incredibly busy with oh, ya know, graduating from college, job interviews and trying to find a job (I could spend a whole post on this!), family being in town, spending time with Tanner, my fiancĂ© (so weird to say that! Weird, but good), etc. So, kind of a little busy, exhausted, stressed, and emotional....
A lot of huge changes are happening in my life and I'm sort of just trying to hold on tight. I'm feeling a mixture of many emotions: fear, anxiety, happiness, joy, stress, exhaustion, euphoria, etc. It changes hourly, I think. Haha. 
It's an incredibly exciting time of life; in fact some of the most exciting things that have happened in my life are occurring, but my goodness, it's a lot to take in! 
Even though all of these are good things that are happening in my life, they are just very BIG things and I'm trying my hardest to adjust. 
But, alas, once again, I have learned that change is the only constant in this life. 

Okay, now to the good, happy part!!!

The Proposal: 

Last Monday Tanner texted me and told me to keep Friday night open because he won a free gift card to a restaurant in Midway. I didn't think anything of it--I had a few parties and little things going on, but I thought that a night out with him sounded like much more fun.  
On Friday, when he came to pick me up, I was exhausted. I had had a long day of school and had found out that a lot of the teaching jobs that I had interviewed for had been filled by other people. I was kind of discouraged, but I was trying my best to think positive thoughts.  We sat on the couch for a little bit, completely horrified yet quite amused by the happenings of the Boston Bombings. They thought they had fun the second bomber, and he was hiding in a boat. (This is important. You'll need to know this haha). I was slowly taking my time to get ready, and little did I know that Tanner was trying to get me out of the house. I could tell he was kind of in a hurry so I asked, "Oh? Do we have reservations?" His response was, "Yea so we gotta go!' I hurried and got ready as soon as possible.
Yet, I have to admit I was a little suspicious. It was in back of my mind. (I mean, we are talking the the way way way back, but you know, it was there). The reason why I thought this was because my roommate, Allie, came back to my room and was looking at shoes for me to wear and then offered to do my hair and was acting kind of...strange (Love ya Al!) That's when I had the idea that something was up. I didn't really think he was going to propose because we had talked about when he was going to do it a few days beforehand, but I had a feeling something was up.
 Side Story: In the week before he proposed, he told me that he wasn't sure if he'd had the money to buy the ring in time, so I may have to just wear a fake one until the wedding or something. In fact, I felt so bad and nervous about us getting married that just a few days before he proposed, I had a complete breakdown session (poor guy has been experiencing a lot of those!) explaining that we should wait to get married because he's broke and he just got back from his mission....blah blah blah. Poor guy had already been planning on proposing later that week. Haha. Of course I was clueless.
Anyway, I dismissed the idea. We got in the car and were driving through the canyon, just talking nonchalantly. I didn't notice Tanner acting weird at all to be honest. He seemed fairly in control now looking back. Then, out of the blue, he says to me, "Hey, you wanna go fishing?" I stopped for a moment, looked outside at the 45 degree, cloudy, windy day and said, "uhhh what?" He laughs and says, "I know how bad you have wanted to go fishing! Our reservation isnt til 8:30. I wanted to get you out of the house so we would have time to fish. I know how bad you have wanted to do something fun and spontaneous. Come on! It'll be fun." (I am still laughing and in shock; haven't responded yet! Not knowing what to say...to be honest I was really hungry. hahaha).
Without my response, he continues, "I know that you are in nice clothes, but the reason I told you to dress up was because we are going to a nice restaurant after and I knew you would be mad if you went to a restaurant in fishing clothes! (he knows me so well). I brought everything we will need:  blankets, fishing poles, umbrella, etc. I'm prepared babe!"
I had another feeling this time. In my head, I literally thought, "Oh my gosh what if he is proposing right now?!" I quickly dismissed that thought again because I didn't want to set my hopes up for it and then have him not do it that night. Plus, we had talked about him not proposing til much later .
We get out at Deer Creek State Park by the Lake. I am FREEZING, but I am trying to stay positive and happy and be spontaneous like I said I wanted to. The guy seemed like he had gone to so much work to make me happy, and I appreciated that, so I was going to have fun amidst the frigid weather!
We get out of the car and there is a parked boat right next to us (remember when I told you to remember the bomber in the boat?) I look at Tanner and I said, "Tanner! There is someone in that boat! I just saw something move in that boat!" He looks over and says, "Oh, Sierra, you're just being paranoid because of the bombers."
"Yea, you're probably right," I responded. Still very uneasy though; I was convinced there was something or someone in that boat!
We get on the sand by the water, Tanner is setting up the blanket and getting everything ready. I decided to practice my casting skills (which are very poor by the way). I'm looking out at the lake, in my pearls and polka dot sweatshirt, just doing my own thing, when I turn to pick up something for the fishing pole, and Tanner grabs the ring out of the tackle box and is on one knee!!!!
I was stunned. I had some idea, but I truly didn't think he was going to propose so I was in complete awe. The boy waited maybe 5 minutes to do it! He was on it. (He tells me it's because it was incredibly freezing so he didn't want to sit there and stir over it!) I am standing there as he says the sweetest words (between him and i :))  and asks me to marry him. I begin getting teary eyed. Not bawling, but definitely teary eyed. I needed to process all of this! I was so shocked. Even though it was in the back of my head, I was not waiting for him to propose; hence the complete shock! It I was so stunned that it took me about a minute to answer. I realized that I hadn't said, "yes!"
(I did, by the way.)
I said yes about 6 times. And hugged and kissed him.
And blah blah blah. Some more cheesy stuff.
It was perfect.
He had meticulously planned the whole thing so that it would be a complete surprise.
And goodness, it sure was!
It meant so much that he went to so much work to make sure every detail was perfect and that I would be surprised--and that he did it somewhere where he knew I would love.
See, I have had this dream of being proposed to on a beach. It used to be a gazebo on a beach, but I changed it just to a beach (I realized that I had to be somewhat realistic about it!) and that I wanted a secret photographer. Tanner explained to me that after he proposed that he chose this location because it was the closest thing he could find to a beach in Utah. (Could you die? So sweet!!!). After we spent a few moments alone, I turned around and found those sneaky photographers! Kim and Cortni, Tanner's sister and cousin were taking pictures (Thank you again, girls! I will treasure these photos). And it was Cortni over by the boat (ah ha! Told you I am not crazy!).
It was a wonderful moment.
It was the moment that I realized that I wanted to be with him forever.
I realized how much I loved him.
I realized how much we both had been through to get to this point.

Kaydie Jo, Tanner's 7 year old sister was waiting for us back at the house and Tanner said she couldn't wait to see me, so we headed over there. She jumped in my arms and said, "I can't wait for you to be my sister!!!"

PS--the restaurant that Tanner was planning on taking me to was made up. Yep, he made up a restaurant. And a reservation time to get me out the door before dark. haha.  Awesome. Don't worry, he fed me after nonetheless :)
Ps--apparently he did have the money for the ring, eh? Don't worry, he's just broke now :) haha.

Tanner, I love you!
Can't wait to spend forever...no, literally ;), forever with you :)






Of course. It was freezing outside!!!

I found the secret photographers! 




Not the best picture of my ring, but you get the idea. It's rose gold :)

I seriously cannot believe that it's real: that there is a ring on my finger, that I am getting married on July 27th, and that I am marrying an incredible man. (In fact, probably the most patient man I know! Shocking, huh?)  
He is wonderful. Seriously wonderful. And I cannot wait to be with him forever.

You can see my colors here.

xoxo.