Sierra's View: April 2013

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Sunday, April 28, 2013

I'm a College Graduate.

...Even though I have basically been done for a while now, I have officially completed my college career. It feels so good to have it done! I am so grateful for all the love, support, and help I have received over the past few years. It definitely has been quite the roller coaster, as it always is when it comes to me. :)
Throughout the past few years, I went through some of my most difficult trials, I met people who truly changed my life, and I have grown in all facets. I am ready for the next step of my life!

Where's Waldo?



Wednesday, April 24, 2013


to this blog:

.........An Engagement Story (Yes, mine! Ahhh!!!)

....................A Graduation Story (Yes. It's happening! Feels so good!)

.......................................More Job Interviews (Yes. Still waiting for a long term job! Such a long, tiring, kind of discouraging process. Waiting for an answer to a prayer.)

.........................................................Wedding Planning and dealing with the stress of that. (Yes, it's not as fun as they make it out to be. Whoever they are.)

But, now...I sleep.
It's a busy, but stressful time of life! Hence the little blog hiatus.

Before I go, I want to show you a precursor for my wedding colors though :). 
I know my blogging friends will appreciate this. Ha. 

Pretty, eh? Will change this a little, but you get the general idea.

Thursday, April 18, 2013

True Life: I am a Basket Case of Stress.

I recently have been very stressed.
No, you don't understand. 

This is what I have going on in my life:  

{Graduation} (One week! Wow!) Even though I have been "out of college" for a year now and have my own classroom and I feel like I have been graduated for a long time, it still feels weird to be officially done with college. Despite the fact that the next stage of life freaks me out a little bit, I can't describe how excited I am to stop eating Top Ramen 5 days out of the week... Haha. 

{Finding a Job/Interviews}: This past year I have been an intern teacher--meaning I was a first year teacher, but I had a mentor who helped me from August-December. I had my own classroom and whole shindig, but it is not a permanent job. Sucks, huh? Now here comes the brutal part: I Have To Find a Long Term Teaching Job. I don't know how many of you are aware of the teaching world out there but THERE ARE NO JOBS. (Oh wait, that's everywhere, huh? Thanks Obama..eeek too soon?) I had an interview and the principal told me that there were 160 applicants for that one position! 160. ONE POSITION. Meaning the fact that I got an interview was huuuuge. Yet, the official job offer has yet to come. And it is getting a little draining and discouraging. I see all of my friends who were student teachers being offered jobs, and I am a little confused why I feel like I'm the only one not getting a job (even though I know I am not the only one!). Filling out applications, emailing principals, dropping off resumes, having interviews is an exponential exhausting (2 points for alliteration) activity and I am starting to feel worn down. I would love the opportunity to have job security in the fall. 

{A really serious relationship} Yea. That's how I'm going to word it. Tanner. He's amazing. I love him so much. But the process of falling in love is stressful and very time consuming. Wonderful, but stressful! I blame him for my lack of sleep! (He's gonna read this and roll his eyes!). There are particular activities that are involving him as well coming up so...yea...that's been stressful. And that's all I'm going to say about that (2 points if you can name that movie). 

{Teaching Those Crazy 9 & 10 Year Olds}. Remember how I am in the process of interviewing for jobs? Yea, well...I ALSO HAVE A CURRENT CLASS TO TEACH FOR 5 MORE WEEKS. This is a very stressful time of the school year. End of year testing starts next week, the finalizing of the year, etc. etc. The kids are starting to get antsy since they know the school year is almost over. It's funny, it's as if they believe they can act completely out of control because the school year is over in 5 weeks. Funny how that works. They have been...quite the challenge this week. Let's just say I went home almost crying today because they were so disrespectful and difficult. This is so not like them. I love my students so much. They are so funny, bright, and entertaining. But this week has definitely been one for the books. The awful, horrid, books that is. I had a little chat with them about respect and "enduring to the end" (Without bringing religion into schools..duh...except my students started singing Popcorn Popping today..soo that whole church & state line is kind of dim here in small town Utah) . Yea, so that's been fun. Ya know? 

{That Thing Called Weight}: I'm gonna say it. And all of you are going to hate me for saying it. But I am not happy with my weight. Yes, I am not fat. But I hate the fact that when I look in the mirror I see only negatives about myself. And yes, I could be healthier. No, I will never be a size 2. No, I will never even be a size 4. Heck, the last time I was a size 2 was 8th grade. But, I know that I can be healthier and feel better about myself--that is what is important. So, I have started this diet. And I hate it. I hate dieting. I hate the way that it messes with my energy and emotions. I hate how I feel when I'm on a diet. But it's stressful continuously watching what you eat, counting the calories, making sure you're excersing every night. It's a full time job. I've tried a lot of different things. So if anyone has any ideas of a diet that allows me to not starve myself, have the energy to still work out, and make me feel good? Please..I'm all ears. 

{That Other Thing Called Emotions}: I am very emotional person. If you did not know this, WELCOME. It has been something that I have dealt with for my whole life. And keeping up with my emotional health has always been a battle. But when I am stressed with huge life changes, It becomes way worse. And then I don't know if it's just stress that's making me feel that way, or my depression, or Satan, or blah blah blah. And I have to stop and take a moment and breathe. 

{Social Life}: Right now, my social life is the last thing on my list. It's heartbreaking, really. I never see my friends. I don't really have time to do anything super exciting or adventurous (which is hard because my natural instinct is to be very spontaneous!). I hate that. So I have told myself that once school is out, I am going to do something new at least once a week this summer. Whether it be a new hike, scrapbook, learn how to change a tire (yes, I have learned that 90 times...I still can't remember), etc. I am going to get that spontaneity and adventuresome Sierra back! It's difficult to learn to balance my life in times like this. I need relationships in my life--they are something very important to me. But when I finally have alone time, I just want to read, or sleep, or check my emails and get caught up on life (or, ya know, Grey's Anatomy...). Socializing sometimes just makes me tired. Am I weird for saying that? 

Then you add in blogging, church stuff, every day errands, etc. And pretty much I don't have time to breathe. 

I seriously don't know how so many of you find the time to be avid bloggers with giveaways, parties, twitter, meetings, sponsors, etc. Thinking about all of those things just makes me want to vomit. One day I'll have the time. One day. 

I sort of feel like the walls are caving in on me. It's as if I have this "list" of things that I need to get done but I cannot seem to find the energy, positive attitude, or time to do it all. I don't know if it's just the fact that I am overwhelemed, or exhausted, or the fact that this week has seriously been one of the craziest weeks when it comes negative incidents happening in this country! With the Boston Bombings, the lost girl in Provo, the factory being blown up in Texas, Iran occurrences, etc. I seriously think that this week has just been a really crappy week..for everyone....

So, I have created a list of 5 things for me and for those of you out there who feel like they are stressed out of their minds (or just suck at dealing with stress, like me! Anxiety anyone?) 

Take a moment every day to breathe. A moment could be anything for you: 2 minutes, 15 minutes, 1 hour. Do not go longer than than 3 hours though! That's just getting distracted and lazy. Do not distract yourself with any technology. Get off the computer. Get off your phone. Turn off your tv.
Go for a walk. Take a nap. Write in your journal. Goodness--just lay there for a minute!!! Just stopping for a minute helps you take in what you feel more awakened and focused on the things that are most important. It is vital that you make room to rest.

Don’t forget to have fun! Laugh. A lot. Do something spontaneous. Not every day, but make it a part of your life. Sometimes I tend to get so rigid in my routine that I forget that spontaneity and adventure is a good thing! 

I don't care if you are religious or not. Pray. A lot. Pray to yourself. Pray to Buddha. Pray to the earth. Pray to God. Just hearing yourself say the words out loud is a stress reliever. Allowing your inner self to believe in something higher than just you will make your thoughts more positive and give you hope in what is coming up next. 

You can’t be equally productive every single waking moment, so you might as well schedule some off time off soon. Be nice to yourself and don’t expect to accomplish everything in one day. Allow yourself to sit down and watch a movie. Allow yourself to a take a long shower. Allow yourself to go to bed early on a Friday night. Allow yourself for that long run you've been wanting to take.  Don't be afraid to say no to things. It's okay to not be busy or doing something all of the time. Choose the things that are most important and go with it. Do what is most important to you first. 

This is not the time to move houses, quit your day job or break up with your significant other (however tempting any of those changes are). Save the big stuff for when you’re calmer and can think clearer. YEP. THIS IS ONE I REALLY NEED. I tend to make rash decisions when I am tired or stressed. Allow yourself to think, process, and make the decisions when your head is clearer and not so overwhelmed

This list could go on and on, but this is something I came up with fairly quickly.  
Now, I am going to take a bubble bath. 

What do you do that helps with you stress? 
Any thoughts on my word vomit of what's happening in my life?

It's almost the weekend! Yay!

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Snowy Getaways & Thoughts on Boston.

A couple of weeks ago (okay, so like a month ago. Don't hate) I had a little getaway for an entire weekend. It was so nice just to escape from reality for a few days and enjoy some relaxed time with family and friends.
My sister, who lives in San Diego, came out to Park City for a wedding. She invited me up for a couple of days to crash. Minus the fact that Dane hated me and cried a majority of the time that I was in his presence, it was so awesome to see her. We stayed up waaay too late  talking about l.o.v.e. and the changes in life. (It was especially late since she was pregnant at the time! --see I told you this was awhile ago cause Lincoln, her baby, is definitely born now...yea.... just love me). 
After Park City, I met my besties at a cabin in Midway for just the day. I would have slept over with all of them but I had stupid (er, I mean, awesome) school (or work? I still don't know whether to say "going to work" or "going to school" when it comes to teaching?) the next day. Nevertheless, it was so fun to eat, play stupid games, dance like idiots, and eat some more with them for a few hours. I love those people so much. 

With the most recent events of the Boston Marathon Bombings, I have taken a moment to stop and think about all the blessings I have been given in my life. Today was one of those days where I heard numerous amounts of negative things happening: a teenage girl lost in Provo, close loved ones dealing with prison, and the Boston bombings.  Getting on the computer, watching the television and picking up my phone just breaks my heart. It makes me sad to know that this is the world we live in. With that being said, I am so grateful for knowledge of a Heavenly Father that has a plan for all of this confusion and heartbreak. And that there will, one day, peace because of and from Him. I am so grateful for the safety and love of all my family & friends. Sending numerous of thoughts and prayers to many people throughout this country who are struggling.

Amidst all of this hardship, I am so grateful for the knowledge of knowing who I am, whose I am, and where I am going.  I am grateful to live in a beautiful place. I am grateful for all the blessings that I am lucky enough to have. 

Park City


love these people. 

This is the funniest game ever! You pick up a card that says, "ear to nose." and you have to hold the card. Sounds stupid? You have no idea. Try not to pee your pants while playing though. I dare you. Sam and I won both times. Just saying. 

Some of the besties.


Sunday, April 14, 2013

That One Time I Met the Boston Celtics.

Many weeks ago (yes, like all the way back in February!--told you I am so behind!) I had the awesome opportunity to go to the Jazz/Celtics game. My uncle was kind enough to spoil my brother and I with 5th row seats behind the Celtics. Yes, I am not from Utah. So no, I am not a Jazz fan. And yes, I am a huge Celtics fan. (Gotta support the fam!) 
It was such a close game (unfortunately & fortunately!) and my boys pulled it off.
It was fun to see family, too.
I had the opportunity to sit next to a boy named Scottie who is going through a lot physically. He, actually, is going to be the voice of NBA Cares next year. He had so much personality and truly loves basketball. 
But, I have to say, to top it all off, one of my dreams came true!! I met many of the players of the Boston Celtics. The quality of these pictures aren't awesome. But it was fun to chat with Kevin Garnett and Paul Pierce. Not many people can say that's happened before, eh? 
I can die happy now. 

With Scottie at the game! Look at Landon yelling. Haha. 

With Scottie and Paul Pierce.

With the brudda--5th row! 

Not the best quality. 

Haha I caught Pierce's sweaty headband after the game. there was a 9 year old sitting behind me who was dying to have it, so I gave it to him. not something I really care about. That was my good duty for the day. Ha

With Kevin Garnett. Look at how huge he is! I felt like a 5 year old child next to him.
Side note: He told me to get on the plane. Uhhhhh....I'm good, thanks.
Yes, he is as crazy as he seems. Ha. 

Such a fun experience!
Love my basketball. 

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Blogging Party {9 Million Years Later!}

A few weeks ago, I had the awesome opportunity to go to Red Mango with some blogging ladies. 
Yes, a few weeks ago. I am so behind on blogging!
Unfortunately, I did not get as many pictures as I would like. 
My life is a little hectic right now. 
But I thought I would share with you this awesome group of ladies. 

I loved meeting you all!
I won't lie...sometimes I really hate blogging things. I always feel like the fattest, least dressed up, worst blogger there. I am not really in this whole "blogging world" that you all are so wonderful at. Nevertheless, it was a good time! I'm glad I went. 
Here's who was all there!!! 

Oh, Just Living the Dream 





Gentri Lee







Buncha cuties, huh?
Come follow us all, ya know?
Happy Hump Day! 

Spiritually Fed and a Giveaway!

This past weekend, I was able to attend General Conference for my church.
Growing up I always watched (er, fell asleep) General Conference from my home in Oregon--always dreaming of being able to sit in the Conference Center in downtown Salt Lake. Since living in Utah, I have had the opportunity to go many times and it's such a wonderful experience! 
General Conference is where all the leaders (apostles and prophets) speak to the members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. We all gather together every six months to "reignite" our testimonies, if you will. 
I love General Conference. I love the strength, light, and power that these men and women possess. 
I love that I can remind myself of how much the Lord loves me every six months.
I am grateful that I have this church to make me not only a better person, but to strive to bless others as well. 
It was such a neat experience to go and sit with Tanner too. Isn't he cute? :)

A few favorite quotes/highlights from this weekend: 

"As you reach our your arms to others, He will reach out and draw near to you."
"We are under covenant to life up those in need."
"There are some things that must be left to the Lord."

"God promises to show us the way out of darkness."

"Healing comes when you walk out of the darkness and into the hope of a brighter light."
"Successful couples love each other with complete devotion."
"Obedience brings strength and knowledge."
"Exert your own strength first."
"Successful couples love each other with complete devotion."
"Obedience brings strength and knowledge."
"Exert your own strength first."
"Stand strong until additional knowledge comes."
"Be kind regarding human frailty."
"Following Jesus Christ is not a casual commitment."
"Much of our redemptive work on Earth is to help others achieve their just hopes and desires."
"Weeping may endure for the night, but joy comes in the morning."
"Start with the faith that you do have and then go from there."

Please take a moment to watch or listen to these talks! They are so awesome. 


Also, some fellow bloggers and I are doing a giveaway over at Amberly's blog! 
We are giving away marriage/relationship gifts!!! I know you all know about that :)
Come check it out and spread the word. 

Sunday, April 7, 2013